Guess what? I’m worth it.
His gaze locked on mine. His eyes baring all the secrets of my heart and soul. He saw deep into the depths of who I am and what I’ve done. The thorns pierced the flesh of his brow. The blood ran down his face. It trickled into his eyes. He didn’t blink. He stared at me with eyes full of love and pain. And he said “You’re worth it.”
Out of pity, they offered him the bitter gall as an analgesic. He refused it. He shook his head, yet he never broke his gaze of piercing love with me. “You’re worth it.”
The lies I told, the sarcastic remarks I’ve said, the lustful thoughts I’ve allowed to play in my mind, they all pierced his flesh. They cut into his flesh, causing searing pain. He grimaced, but he never blinked. He looked at me dead on. He saw my thoughts, he heard the words, he felt the betrayal of the lies and he whispered, “You’re worth it.”
He breathed his last, crying out “It is finished!” The veil tore, and heaven and earth were silent. Immediately the crushing guilt of the pain I caused fell on me. Satan laughed. He thought he had won. My heart mourned. I had done this, and through it all, my beloved said I was worth it.
I approached the tomb, only to find it empty. The angel said “he has risen, just as he promised.” I felt this presence around me, this warm sensation, this love… I recognized it. I had felt this love before. When he gazed at me from his place on the cross, the jeering faded into the distance and all I felt was this love and acceptance. Now it was all around me. No matter where I looked. No matter who was looking at me. The love was present. The veil was torn. His presence was no longer contained within a place or a gaze for certain people to experience.
Suddenly he was before me. My beloved was alive! He held out his scarred hands. The lashes on his skin were still there. The evidence of my betrayal remained, but he was alive. He held out his hand and he looked at me in my eyes and he said “Beloved, you are so worth every lash, every scar, every piercing. You are worth it all.”
Guess what? Jesus said I’m worth it.